so my son is now 11 yrs old, he is almost taller than me! wow!! he has gone through many phases with toys and activities. "toy story" was his favorite around 3 yrs old. he even has his own woody and buzz dolls (still does since i won't let him throw them out). it was "thomas the tank engine" at age 4-5. he was given his own collection of the movies and actual train tracks for all his trains he had. he loved "bionicles" (which are lego robot type things for those who don't have little boys :) for quite a few years. then "tech decks" the little skateboards last year. and right now it is all about baseball and baseball cards. but through all these favorites and fads he as always loved sticks! now a stick can be anything a sword, a gun, a walking stick, a ninja knife. the options are limitless!!!! he goes to his grandparents house and they sand it down and wrap duct tape for a handle and he is set. i think he comes home with a new one every trip. you would think that he would phase out of the sticks, but no! tonight when i put him to bed he wanted to sleep with his current stick. amazing!! i do appreciate that the most inexpensive thing has been the longest lasting. who needs those expensive fads. get your son a stick!!

i know that wedding is pretty much all that comes out of my mouth. but this will only be the case for 6 more days, to be exact. i have not been counting down until now. the only reminders i have had on the countdown have been from my future-mother-in-law and my wedding planner. so until now i have not been marking it off my calendar. but now it is hard to ignore. up until now i have been slightly stressed about the wedding planning stuff. not about being married to the love of my life, i couldn't be happier about that! just stressed with the planning and changes and spending of money that has come with the wedding planning. but now i am excited! it is almost here! i will soon be married to the most fantastic man! i never knew i could be this happy! i will have to figure out what my new signature will look like. i know that you are thinking "really??? is that so important??" but yes it is, i sign my name about 100 times a day at work. and it is important that my signature is short, sweet and rolls right off my fingertips! does anyone even know what a capital F looks like in cursive? i can't remember. anyways yes i am excited and can't wait for our big day to be here and to celebrate with our great family and friends!

wedding planning is so stressful! i think it would be much easier to help somebody else with their wedding, rather than plan your own. there are just so many decisions to make and way to many options. it doesn't help either when your significant other keeps telling you that getting married in vegas by elvis would have been a better idea :) it's amazing how things get so much bigger than planned. and their are so many things and people to think about. many people tell me that it is my wedding so i should just do what i want ( and of course take the grooms ideas as well) but really a wedding is for the entire family. especially the mothers! and i just don't think i am the type of person that will just choose to do only what i want. i will maintain my vision but i don't think it is a terrible idea to make some other family members happy by taking their ideas as well. of course that is just me. i don't think i could do it any other way. so in the end. i will be happy with the results of our wedding. friends and family getting together to celebrate with us, and me married to the greatest guy in the world! i am happy! but i will be even happier on may 2nd!!!

just made the most delicious cupcakes! they are marscipone and strawberry filled, i made vanilla and lemon cupcakes.

tomorrow is easter and we are meeting my mother in centralia so that the little monkey can go and spend spring break down there. he will have a blast i am sure. then we are heading back up to have easter at josh's aunts house. it will be great to spend time with family.

wedding day plans are underway! i can't believe how much is already done. of course there is still more to do, but i feel good about what i have accomplished. and i have had so many great helpers! my sister has been fabulous, she was able to help me find the perfect dress....i couldn't have done it without her. and my future-mother-in-law has been great as well, helping me with ideas and going shopping with me. i am now just really excited for it to be here.

another thing i am working on is getting into a knitting group. i love to knit and i need to expand my skills. but i think it would be fun to learn in a group. so i am going to look online to see if there are any groups locally. i would think that there are being in the big city. :)

this is my first blog. reading somebody else's blog is very interesting, it is amazing what you can learn and hear from them. mine won't be the most exciting thing ever written, but it will make me feel better and get my thoughts out.

i am 29, almost 30!!! eeek! how did that happen, it feels like time has just flown. now 40 doesn't look old at all or even 50 for that matter. i am engaged to be married to a wonderful guy! we are getting married may 2nd. so excited and happy! i have a fantastic 10 yr old son, he will be 11 next month. that makes me feel old :) he has grown up so quickly! every time i look at him i wonder what happened to that cute little chubby cheeked baby i once had. josh and noah are my life! i love to be with them all the time. we have a hilariously clumsy giant moose of a dog, heidi. she is part black lab and german shepherd, and we are sure there is some moose mixed in there as well. she is the most unladylike dog i have ever met. but she is a good girl and she loves us.

i work full time, but i have noticed that most of my friends from high school are fantastic stay at home mom's. i have to say that i am jealous! i hate not being home when noah gets home from school and feeling like i am missing out on so much, that i can't get back. it just goes so quickly.

our plan is to focus on josh's career so that i can quit and stay home. we want more kids and i want to spend time with my little boy who is growing up so fast! but i am impatient and i want it to happen now :) of course the things that i want to savor pass quickly and the things i can't wait for take forever. but i am trusting God, i know that it will all work out according to His plan, not mine. i just need a little help with the patience part :)